Current mood: *yawn*

See, a week didn't kill ya'll did it? Hello? Anyone here? HEY. Where the f*ck did everyone go?
***
So one of the reasons we took a week off was we were sad.

The first open stage we ever did went about as well as a first-time performance can go. We remembered that playing guitar and singing is supposed to be fun. We played our comfort songs. We smirked. We loved it.

The second time, two Fridays ago, not so much.

We didn't know if we'd have a slot, so the OCD kicked in almost immediately. We needed to know we'd be on. We needed to know what time. We needed a setlist, which was still hadn't decided on until we got there.

We went on right after a guy sang a song he wrote about his dead brother.

Our songs seemed trivial.

But we did it anyway.

We opened with Long Black Veil and we forgot how to play the F. It was mind-boggling, this forgetting a simple chord. And it threw us. We growled more the longer the F as in mind-f*ck went on. By the end, we were strumming it lightly and singing louder.

We were *convinced* the audience saw the fraud before them. All we heard were flaws.

Then we played Oh My Sweet Carolina, which we can play in our sleep. It's a good, slow, sweet song. Still no F, but we forged ahead anyway. We ended with Champagne High, which might be our favorite song to play when we're home alone, drunk in our living room.

The entire last verse, we played the wrong chords. Oops. At the time, were furious. But over the last week, we've been slowly... letting... go.

So we got the sh*tty one out of the way, basically. Afterward, a nice folkster asked us to jam with him and a bunch of guys as part of a string jam night every Sunday. We go tonight and would like to get the taste of last week's ass performance out of our mouth.

And we maybe play Wednesday, too, at a different venue. We're thinking So Lonely and Black, but we still have this thing about cutting our heart up and serving it to the audience for a light after-hours snack.

We want that sh*t to taste good, you know?

***
Currently listening to: Ghetto Bastard.